What I Want

Okay, so in theory, I'm what an awesome nerdy fellow would want. But what do I want?

I can sum up what I want in one word: Love.

But we all know Love isn't that simple. I want the real deal. I want to know I'm wanted even when he's not around. I want that random single text message that no one else would understand, but to me, it speaks volumes of love poems and dedication. I want dedication, loyalty, affection, desire, amusement and complete comfort. I want a nerd/geek who has similar interests and passions--enough to get along, but still have room for discussions. He doesn't have to like everything I do, but he's gotta let ME like it.

I'm not a shallow person, but there's gotta be something physically attractive about him, too. Maybe the eyes, or the smile. Because once the affection and relationship is formed, he's automatically going to become more attractive to me. It works like that, even for just friends! But the more attached I become, the sexier he will be to me. That's how it is.

What I DON'T want is to have the beginnings of all of that...and then lose it all when he changes his mind. And as I said last time, it has happened repeatedly. It's perhaps made me a tad paranoid. I imagine I'll be waiting for the other shoe to drop a lot in the first days of a relationship. If I ever have one.