Don't lie to be "nice"

"If I were single, I'd totally be after you..."

Guys, never EVER say this to your single female friends. Especially if there is any form of attraction between you. Because guess what, if you become single, she's going to remember that conversation and there's going to be a stupid spark of hope. Even though she knows better. It's there. And it hurts when you give the "friends speech" and say you just need time and some space to get your head on right...which also hints at maybe more.

But ultimately, when you do start dating, and your single female friend isn't the choice...well...ouch.

So when Second Guy and I were making some tentative plans to hang out yesterday, I still had that far-off spark of hope. I wasn't holding my breath, as I've said, but the attraction was still there. We have a lot of fun together. But he's indecisive and frustrating as hell, too. So when he said on Friday that he couldn't hang out, I was fine with it. I turned the day into a Me Day. Went to the movies, took a bubble bath, shaved my legs, read, watched Netflix, annoyed the cat...

Then I get on Facebook today and find out that the reason Second Guy couldn't hang out was because he had a date. It hurt. It shouldn't have, but it did. And it pissed me off. And then sent me a load of self-loathing because, geez, why would I have been his first choice. Oh, and when did he decide he was ready to date again? Did I give him too much space? Too much time?

And at the same time, why the hell do I care??

Oh. Right. Hope. Stupid stupid hope.

and PMS.

I think I need another cup of coffee.